MISSING THE STAGE & MISSING A DREAM

There’s no denying it, I miss the stage every single day. It’s been almost two years since the last production I was in and I’m beginning to realize how much I truly miss it. The stage is where I feel happiness and this energy that I haven’t gotten anywhere else. I miss acting, dancing, and singing in order to entertain an audience and provide a moment of joy in their lives. The joy that comes from making the audience laugh and smile is something that I used to, and am realizing I still do, thrive on.

So, why did I stop? That question seems to be replaying in my head a lot. The easy answer is life just got too busy. I started college and started new jobs that just got in the way. I don’t have enough time for all of the rehearsals and script memorizing time needed. Yeah, those would be the easy answers but something far more looming is the real root. I’m scared. My entire acting and dancing careers were done under the same sets of directors who knew me well, and the thought of having to prove myself and my talents to someone else is pretty terrifying to me. Since I stopped performing for so long I’ve lost some of my confidence. I’ve always been doubtful of my singing abilities, and stopping practicing has definitely not helped. I’ve never experienced stage fright but the fear of auditioning is something that runs deep. I don’t like failing because disappointing people is one of my biggest fears, and opening yourself up to an audition allows a big possibility of failing.

But, I’ve got to stop letting my fears crush my dreams. There’s a large part of me that longs to perform again and the more I let fear push it down the more that spirit breaks. I deserve to let myself find the joy I once had in the stage and regain my confidence. This may, however, be a process. I might need to take voice lessons to get my singing voice back to where it was and gain confidence there. There will likely be times where I audition and don’t get a role, and that has to be okay.

I also will need a support system boosting me up. People are always telling me “you need to be in more performances” and “I can’t wait to see you on stage again” and I need to start listening to them and stop letting the worrying voice in my head be louder than the encouragement. I need people to keep me accountable, in the beginning, for going to auditions and putting myself out there. So many times I’ve gotten so close to doing something only to duck out last minute and let anxiety win. Not anymore. My anxieties and fears will not overcome my dreams and one of those dreams is to be on stage again.

If anyone knows of any tips or has words of encouragement, I’d gladly appreciate those in the comments. Also, if any Johnson City locals know of any production opportunities or people I could get connected with to help me in this process, let me know!

And remember, don’t ever let your fears crush your dreams. God’s given you a light so let it shine.

xx,

Bailey

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2 thoughts on “MISSING THE STAGE & MISSING A DREAM

  1. Hannah says:

    You can do it Bailey! Your stage presence is AMAZING! You bring so much joy to the audience and the rest of the cast when you preform. I loved getting to rehearse and preform with you and I know everyone else who has worked with you would say the same. Now, let other people experience that joy too. And let yourself experience the joy of performing again! 😊

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